Archive for April, 2010

A thought about group sex.

I am a control freak. I didn’t realise this until it was pointed out but it’s painfully true.

As a child I would play school with my sister, except she would have to sit there while I directed her on what to say and do. “Ok, now tell me you haven’t done your homework… No, not like that. Say it more angrily.” I was only like that with my sis – not anyone with whom I was less familiar – but from her point of view I was horrible to play with.

I find myself revisiting these controlling urges whenever I’m in bed with the Boy and other people. I know he’s a grown-up, independent, a good lover; all these rational things. But the urge to lean over and go “Not like that darling” or “Now you should say this” is almost irresistible.